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Inside this chaotic mind
thoughts push
And pull

Bully one another
For the opportunity
To press rewind

Before they line up
One by one
Row by row

To repeat
Every unkind
Untrue
Out of the blue

Come unglued
Cruel commentary
Of self doubted thought

Self taught
For naught
Word, by word, by slicing word

That strips the confidence
From these bones
In condescending tones

Until the only thing left
Is this child
Inside this woman’s mind

Thinking
She’s obviously
Out of her league
And what were
they possibly thinking

When they thought she
Was worthy
Of such lofty pursuit

And now they’ll surely find
That she’s a fraud here blinking
In her empty head
So little to be said

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Moments of Sunshine

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Little pockets of space
Linger
To try and erase

Tensions race
Fears
Warm embrace

And I sit here
Raising my tired face
To the sun

Praying
Not to come
Undone

Never satisfied

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They line up
For their turn
Arms crossed
At the wait times

Fingers wagging
At everything
I’ve surely missed

Subtly nagging
Without
saying the words

All the while
The motivation
Lagging
To find solutions

Yet wanting
Resolutions
Readily
Available

But inevitably
not liking
My answers

Little reminders of faith

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Words are churning
Acid burning
Holes in my gut

Tears down my cheeks
As I sit and fight
This voice inside my head

Tells me it’s just not enough
And as I do what I do
To ease the pain

Surf through social media
To escape this world
Endlessly scrolling
Mindlessly trolling

I see your smiling face
And remember the day
I looked through the lens
And took that shot

And the knots
start to unwind
Just a little bit
And these unkind
Inward thoughts

Turn from roar
To whisper

Where I still know
I can’t do it all
but must have faith
That somehow

It’s gonna to be okay
And there smiling back at me
Your smiling eyes

And the love I see there
I know somehow
It doesn’t lie

Sweet dreams

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Sweetest of dreams
My dearest love

May the man
In the moon
Softly croon

Until you fall
Into my arms
And we dance
With the spoon

Before we
Giggle like children
Then tumble down
Into a pile

And the cow winks
And says he’ll
Be back soon

Then it’s just you
And me
Arm in arm

Lip to lip
As we sip
From this endless
Tap of love

That drips
From our eyes
To our souls

Takes all
Our broken bits
And glues
Them back together

Fits
Us perfectly
Imperfect

Before the sun
Comes up
And we open
our bright eyes

Sunset love

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Shades of greys
And hues of blues
Likeness to your eyes

Where I can look
For weeks
Soulfully seek

Redemption
In my happy sighs
When I think of all

The reasons
That make up the why’s
Of my love for you

So true
That this changing
Sunset sky

Cannot possibly
Display
As I relay my affection

Every reflection
Of my souls
Desire
To be yours

The gift of a messenger

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Through a simple letter
of encouragement

Meant to show me
The beauty of Jesus’s love
(Which it surely did)

The light of that love
Shone so brightly back
To his face, so intently on mine

With so much kindness
Etched in every line
Love meant without intention

But pure hearted love
And not only did I see
The intended

But the utter beauty
Of the human heart
Of the bearer of the message

And with profound tears
Without fear
I bow to you Jesus

For the gift of more
Than just the message
But the messenger
Who now holds my heart

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